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My anthem from now until forever...

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Merry Christmas

So today is Christmas. While I am normally super into the holiday spirit, this year I just can't get into it. Maybe it's all the working, or me being sick, or me being broke that's got me in a 'whatever' spirit for the holidays this year. Last year this time I was still up wrapping gifts listening to my Christmas Medley on my ipod. This year I'm writing this post under my toasty duvet cover in the bed. Not only am I not excited about Christmas this year, I'm also not excited about NYE, which I also had already squared away by this time last year. My Vegas plans were set, and I was gun-ho and ready to go! This year...not so much. If I had a bigger house I would just have the homies over for a little get together, and call it a night. I know...sad. The older you get, the more exciting it should be...right? To be honest, I haven't been as excited about Christmas or any holiday for that matter since my grammie died in 2003, but the funk that I'm in this year just can't be explained. Maybe being with my family tomorrow will snap me out of this mood and get me amped for the new year.

Despite my weird mood, I definitely want to wish all of my friends, readers, colleagues, family and the random people who found their way to this blog a merry and joyous christmas!

p.s. can u believe 2008 is OVER??! Crazy how time flies...

Til' the Cops Come Knockin'...

I know this video is like superrrrrr late (saw him in concert Nov. 1st) but I figured people would still enjoy it...



sorry it's so jumpy...i was definitely in the mood (this is one of my favorite songs) and was getting a bit caught up in the moment!! lol


suffice to say that me and the girls had a WONDERFUL time...i love MAXWELL!! I cannot wait for Feb. 14th to roll around...

I Can See Your HALO...

So....yeah. FIRST the song is hot. SECOND she has fine ass Michael Ealy in the video. THIRD this isn't even real and I'm SUPER HATING.

I clearly need to upgrade my love life....asap.

Vanessa's List of Thankfulness

So i know i haven't posted in like a week, so i figured since i have some time off today, i might as well. i was trying to think of a clever way to show my appreciation and 'thankfulness' for the people and things in my life, when i decided a list would be the easiest way to go. so here it is, "Vanessa's List of Thankfulness":

- my grandfather: man! i owe this man so much. after my grammie died in 2003 this man has been the only person in my life that i know i can always count on. he means so much to me, and no matter how often we argue and disagree i know he would do anything and everything for me with no hesitation.

- my house: seems kind of weird, but i am so happy to have this house!!!! this home has been the only home i've ever known. so many amazing memories took place in this house that i don't think i would ever be able to let it go. in times like these where so many people are without a home, i am truly blessed to have a place to come rest my head every night.

- my extended family: the Atkins, the Banks-Bordenave Family, Tya-- these people mean so much to me. most of you have known me since i was a KID. prom, graduations, getting into high school and college, boy drama, friend drama---you guys have been my rock and my support through all these years. if i could have picked my own family, it would have been all of you.

- my amigos!!!!: Brittney, Chris, Courtney, Perris, Aura, Sydnie, Aloni, Amber, Tessa, Patrick, Alycia, Brian, Nately, Sarah and Taylor (my babies!), Kenturah, Dawn, Kanna-chan, Keone and Cheynne, and Will. WOW. i'm not sure why, but God CLEARLY has his hands on me. i knew that there had to be other amazingly wonderful people out there besides myself, but i never knew i would be friends with all of them. i don't have any brothers or sisters but the relationships i have with some of you are so deep that in my heart and spirit you're like a brother or sister to me. all the hours-long conversations in the car, on the phone, on aim--thank you. for going out with me when i know you didn't want to--thank you! for being there for me when my grandma passed away --thank you so much. for coming to my game nights and other random events--thank you. but most importantly, for enlightening me, for supporting me, for putting me in my place, for being honest, for loving me--thank you so much.

-dutchess: even though you get on my nerves a lot, you have brought so much happiness into our family. when i thought we almost lost you, i felt like we had lost another family member. thanks for being such an adorable (but bitchy..lol) little dog!

-BAPE: thanks for giving a sista a job! i have truly learned a lot about business and work relations being here. Daigo, you are like the greatest boss to ever exist on the planet. thanks for putting up with my weird idiosyncrasies, my singing, my crazy looks (hahaha), and everything else. i couldn't have asked for a better person to work with. to the staff at bape--you guys are fabulous! 

there are so many other things that i'm grateful for today, and always, but i'd rather not make you all sit here and read thru all of them lol....

Happy Thanksgiving!!